Life and Letters

I'm having severe stomach pains now - it started this afternoon at around 5.15 pm and brought back horrid memories of last June when I had the exact pains and was throwing up for an entire weekend. R had to bring me to hospital in the middle of a friday night and i was drinking flat coke and sprite for those few days. It wasn't a pleasant weekend at all and somehow, I'm having a deja vu here. The only good thing that came out of that whole weekend was that i managed to slim down to my dream weight, but the weigh all piled back on in no time after i recovered. *fingers crossed that I don't start throwing up tonight!*

Maybe the pains are a result of stress. I realised that the more emphasis i put on an interview, the more i'm bothered by it. I only realised how important this interview was to me until recently. I usually come out of an interview knowing whether I've nailed the scholarship, job or whatever. But today, as i walked out into the cold (and sunshine), i was undecided about how i really felt. Challenging questions were asked, as well as awkward ones, but the atmosphere was extremely friendly to the point that I felt cautious about how relaxed I was. Then the most awkward question of all 'how would your best friend describe you? Good and bad points about you...' I didn't know what to say. I have no idea how my friends really perceive me. So i came up with some crap answer and hope to God that they bought it.

Now i just have to wait till next week... Just let next week come and go...

For now, i'm goign to lie in bed and will the pains to go away